post pregnancy weight loss stories
Despite all my posts, Im not always a ray of bubbly sunshine with an ever-so-optimistic outlook. Truth be told, I dont always feel that way. It has been a rough week. As positive as Im trying to be, I still go through bouts of... Well a trail mix of different emotions really. Im in the process of moving from a condo to a new house, so the hubs and I are there EVERY night after work/gym renovating and painting it. No rest for the weary. So Im sure that doesnt help. But just tonight there I was painting a stencil on the wall and I was getting flustered that I had to keep going over stuff and I was hot and sweaty and then broke down in tears on the floor. My husband came over and sat next to me with a look of "how can I fix this?" If only he could. Quite frankly, I just havent been myself since all this went down. I WANT to be. But I havent figured out how to get over something that is ongoing. So open-ended. Its hard to be my usual fun-loving self when I feel broken, scared, anxious, determined, angry... All at the same time, at any given moment. I break out in a sweat and I dont know if its a hot flash or my hormones coming back or the a/c not cool enough. Thats been happening every so often and when it does I first start thinking its my body starting to produce hormones again but then cant help but think maybe its just the menopausal symptoms and I downward spiral from there. Its seriously an emotional roller coaster. I can go from being all gung ho that I can beat this thing to thinking about the fact that my ovaries, organs in my body, are not functioning and what that could mean for my health down the road. And these thoughts all take turns bouncing around in my head all day! Its maddening at times. Especially since I DO have a life to live outside of this internal nightmare I cant seem to wake up from. And looking stuff up doesnt always lead me to a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Sometimes I just come across negative stuff about POF that makes me question if my fight is futile.
Then theres dealing with people. Its not necessarily
the friends and family thats super supportive or the ones who dont really know what to say. Its the strangers who put their inadvertently put their feet int their mouths unbeknownst to them. For example, when purchasing new appliances for the house the sales manager said, "oh so youre moving from a condo to a house?" Then looked at my parents and said, "wont be long before youre grandparents, huh?" Umm yeah it might be. And then when we were visiting my in-laws we were at one of their friends dinner party and the comments were flying like bullets at a shooting range. First someone just came right out and asked my husband when well be starting a family. He had a good generic answer of "were working on it" to which they replied, "well dont wait too long!" Yeah ok. Then when we were leaving a little early since we were a bit jet lagged someone said, "leaving so soon. Oh, is somebody pregnaaaant?!" Smack smack. I should start saying, "no, my ovaries dont work." Ha! Can you imagine the look on peoples faces?!? Why do people even say things like that? You shouldnt go poking into peoples personal lives, especially if you dont know them! But yeah... Anytime anyone mentions something like that, the words come at me like shards of glass and it takes a while to shake it off.
But ya know... Its the hand Ive been dealt. It is what it is. So while I may wallow in it every now and then (and deservedly so) as my mother always says, I need to "pick myself up with my bootstraps" (though Ive never seen these so called boots with straps) and just keep on keepin on.
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But ya know... Its the hand Ive been dealt. It is what it is. So while I may wallow in it every now and then (and deservedly so) as my mother always says, I need to "pick myself up with my bootstraps" (though Ive never seen these so called boots with straps) and just keep on keepin on.
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